When we were young,
We never imagined,
How complex this life can be.
And now, all of our wishes,
As untamed as they can be,
Reaches the end.
A mere reflection;
Of fragile hearts,
And hopeful minds.
Fame and power,
Desire and longing,
Love and helplessness,
..so what do we live for ultimately?
I hope I never wake up
I dream about you all the time now
And I don't wanna face
Another night without you here
Someday, someway, somehow
We will be together again
You know I've always wanted
Just to feel the touch of your love
You know I've always hated
Knowing how far apart we are
Someday, someway, somehow
We will be together again
I just want you to know
Baby I'm all messed up in you
You're far away
But you're here with me
Baby I'm all messed up in you
You're all I need
My everything
Every night i wake up
Hoping that I'll find you here and
There's not a day that goes by
I don't think about your smile
Someday, someway, somehow
We will be together again
I just want you to know
And I know that we will find a way
To be together someday
And I promise you that I won't leave
I'll be here forever
I want you
I need you
I'm lost here without you
I'm all messed up in you
I hope i never wake up
I dream about you all the time now.
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Well, I just watched these two movies via dvds ((: Flightplan starring Jodie Foster and Abandon starring Katie Holmes. Both are good, but the second one has a better plot. I just cant get enough of psychological thrillers, and suspense. They really make me think, and the realization is always so shocking, and amazing. Love that show.
Umm. Cant wait for mum and dad to go outside, cuz today I just want to be alone. Already got a lil pissed cuz dad asked me annoying questions, and kept interrupting the movie, cuz the show Abandon was so nice, I wanted to watch it again. But I guess I wanna watch it alone to gather my thoughts once again, and stuff. I just couldn't watch it with him around. Well, at least I didn't upset him, cuz when he's angry, he's really scary. Well, at least he's having a good time, watching his drama series. Hmm.
These days, I think my interest for TVB Hong kong Drama serials has died down. Starting to love thrillers and action so much more. Cuz those series are always so predictable, and Im tired of predictable stuff. I want my life to be suspenseful and eventful, and not some routine I have to endure.
So yeah, kinda touchy today, but I guess music will help later, and I'll watch that movie again later ((: I can be so weird. Sometimes I get so excited over stuff, and cant wait to get things done, and I get so eager to be with friends and all, while other times like now, I just wanna sit at home and like, whenever people talk to me, there's this trigger within me that just wants to start, its like I have this messed up emotional clock ticking within me.
Ive been tryin to live in the moment anyway. Have also been thinking about the poem and stuff. Well, obviously its not going to be a happy one, cuz I cant write happy ones. Thought of this theme last night, like a girl trapped in a carnival, well, a so-called carnival. A guy hides her somewhere, and warns her not to open the door or he'll kill her, or something like that. Well I don't know. Sigh. Just an idea of mine. =/ My poem isn't gonna make for happy reading, cuz I want it to be like.. something to do with murder,deceit,love, and the complexity of emotions, and most importantly, the brutality of life. Like I wanna display the carnival as a façade.
Like how am I gonna express all that stuff… =/ its really worrying me. Well, just hope I'll be able to pull it off.
Ah, whatever.
Happy CNY eve. And btw, Ive shifted to : http://worldofforworndeceit.reciter.com :DD Have only listed my new addy here, cuz if you seriously read until the end, then youre amazing and should have the right to know my new blog :DD
Amo il dio.
